I have been a mom since I was 16. I got pregnant with my first amazingly beautiful daughter at 15. I had her and after that 19 I had my son. For a while I thought that was the extent of my kids. Perfect one boy and one girl. The "American Dream".
When my son started Kindergarten my husband and I decided more kids. Well, I am an odd person. Anyone that thinks they know me can tell you this. Since my son was going to be 6, by the time my next daughter was born I told hubby, well yeah we need to have one more baby after this one. Why? I don't want this little one all by her lonesome on the end of the rope. The older two will be off and gone and then the youngest will be all by herself.
So the story goes. We have two more daughters one when I was 25 and the last one when I was 28. The girls are little spit fires and when they are both teenagers I am sure I am going to be wishing I had waiting a little longer between the two.
I watch my children grow. My oldest is now going into 8th grade and is becoming a beautiful young woman. My son is going into 5th and is definately going to be a lady killer. My second daughter is turning 4 this yr. It is officially her last year of being a "baby". Next year starts K and the big time growing up begins. Then there is the baby. My little baby the youngest. She has just turned one. It seems like it happened behind my back.
Next year will be a milestone in everyone's life. My oldest C will be going into Highschool, my son D will be going into Middle School , A will be starting Kindergarten and E will be going into preschool. That means at least two to three days a week there will be no children in this house.
So, as I think of them all growing and before I know it they will all be in school the entire day.That brings me to my biggest question. What does one do when there are no more babies. I have had a baby for the last 13 yrs.
Ok ok I may seem to be jumping the gun, but really, I feel like this is something I need to prepare for. What happens when there is no baby underfoot. What happens when your hip is empty and you no longer need the special monster spray in the middle of the night.
What has me thinking of all this? This weekend I am down to one child, the last baby. My son is thousands of miles away with his grandmother on a trip to Texas. My two older girls are with my parents for the weekend. That leaves me and E.
This is what got me thinking. Probably, within a few years, E will be having her own little excursions as well. Then that leaves an empty house. Then what?
I know I know! Everyone thinks I am nuts! This means FREEDOM! Not totally but on those nights they are all gone there will be a little bit of freedom. That means quiet. Did I mention the quiet scares me?!?!
Ok enough of the freaking out for now. I don't need to be thinking of all this. I have years and years until my house is gone.
