Nightmares

    I was not in the mood to even get out of bed today.

    The dreams from last night were still too fresh in my head to be able to actually deal with being awake. The shadows continue to chase me to no extent. There is nowhere to hide and you can never run fast enough. The only way to escape their icy grip is to wake up. Unfortunately, I don't always wake up before they get me.

     I am always alone in the shadow dreams and the shadow dreams are the worse. I always start off being lost. I am looking around everywhere but nothing seems familiar. I am a tourist in a foreign land with a foreign language and I forgot my translation book.
 
     I feel something behind me. I look but there is nothing there. The hair on the back of my neck stand up and the goosebumps start. It is like a prey knowing a predator is stalking it. Its life dependant upon its instincts! One wrong turn and you are someone's next treat. At that point I always start to run. But where do you run when you have no clue where you are in the first place.

     This is the point when I start to sweat. That cold clammy sweat, you're freezing, your heart is pounding in your chest. The anxiety is so bad you can't stand to be in your own skin. All of this from an unknown fear a shadow behind you.

     Then I am stuck. There is no where else to go. The shadow is rushing upon me. It surrounds me and sucks the breath from my lips. I try to scream but it has taken that as well. My lungs burn for air. My eyes crave the light. My soul desires even an inkling of an explanation of this fear. Any strength I had has perished..

   That is usually when I wake up. The problem is the anxiety is still there. I loathe the awareness of being in my own skin with a disgusted feeling in my stomach. I am freezing but sweating with my agony. There is this lurking revulsion deep inside that I can neither avoid nor escape. I am incapable of eluding to what is causing these symptoms.

I need a way to escape my nightmares....